No really! I have been very busy. I have stepped up in my professional career and suddenly so many things have fallen into my plate. To be honest I am reveling in the challenges thrown my way, but I also have some frustrating days when things don't go my way. My personal life on the other hand is in an upheaval. I am flying by so many important milestones in my life, barely absorbing them before next one comes up. I have made many friends in last few months, partied way too much for my age and managed to spend the best time with my loved ones. I have also made some difficult life choices, made mistakes and suffered consequences. But I have not been bored.
I have managed to channel one of my bad qualities into a good habit. I know that I bury my problems as deep as possible until it explodes into an unmanageable mess which I can barely control and end up regretting. But this has helped me in compartmentalizing my problems. I fetch one problem at a time from the hole where all my other problems are buried, and force myself to do something about it. It works really well in maintaining my work-life balance. The frustrations of my work don't creep into my personal time because they are buried so deep I don't even remember them. Similarly complications from my personal life rarely ever interrupt me during work because I actively forget about them. Of course this means that I forget my responsibilities more often, and have thus become completely dependent on phone reminders and sticky notes.
I rarely get time to indulge in art. Because I want to avoid screen time after my work, I barely touch digital work. These days I'm only doodling in my physical sketchbook because I only get short times to myself.
But truly? I am happy. I have never been so satisfyingly happy. I am busy and productive when it matters and I am happy.
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